“honestly I really like confidence in you.. I dont want u to act like ur a diva but i want u to have ur personal style and not be afraid of it. Your beautiful.. i dont care what anyone says. Today i was sitting down and i looked at you.. and honestly i just pondered.. who would of thought you’d be my girlfriend, my bestffriend, my guardian angel, my true love
i started thinking about how much you’ve helped me.. and i really appreciate it baby.. and i started thinking about how ur shy to show ur beauty..”
H: “Does this mean I have to marry you?”
M: “No… loser.”
H: “because I would”
-doesn’t look up and stays silent for a moment … looks up and finds them smiling-
H: “Stop being cute…”
M: “Shut up.”
H: “I would though. You know I told my mom that?”
M: “What?? What did she say?”
H: “I told her… that if we last for 3 years and we’re happy together, I’ll marry you. She smiled and gave me her ‘okay’ face”
M: “lololol stopppp”
——
H: “I love you too much”
M: “You can never love someone too much. And I love you too.”
It’s amazing seeing how much your perspective has changed about this… and you continue to surprise me when you bring it up out of the blue. I’m still not saying anything to you about it because you never know what can happen. Instead, I’ll continue to let things flow like they have been.
This time, I’m thinking of you and only you.
This time, I have you in my thoughts and only you.
This time, I’m doing this for you - for us - and only us.
And that makes me incredibly happy.
“You can’t come to my house lmao”
“why not? let’s go watch a movie and make pina colada :D”
“My room is really messy…”
“-____-… like I care? I’ve seen your room messy before lol”
“No like … it’s beyond messy. Like, you’ll break up with me if you see that mess, messy. lol”
“Listen yo, if you ever want to live with me someday, you better change your messy habits mister! XP”
“Dude, I should be an interior designer or something. I love decorating my room and stuff. Watch, someday when I get my own place, I’m going to decorate it really nice”
“You mean, decorate our place.” -pause- “…no?”
“Mmm… we’ll see.”
“I don’t like your dog! it’s always trying to eat me!”
“Hey! If you want to live with me someday, you gotta love my dog too because I’m bringing him with me”
Defendent - Me :: Plaintiff - Ex-lover
Lawyer:
“What’s your case?”
Well …
Where do I start your honor?
Do I start from when we first met years ago? A casual day, everything the same.
Do I start from our first kiss? The very moment when our lips touched for the first time.
Or do I start explaining the story from our very first embrace? When our bodies seemed to help our souls become one.
—
I remember that day like it was yesterday
Baby, you lifted my chin and gave me that very first kiss
So innocent, yet an act that would lead to a chain of events
That simple action
robbed the heart of a young girl
and with that began the coalition between mind and heart; between body and soul
A dance between lovers
you the stem, I the bud
letting the petals grow
and forming something so delicate and beautiful
and positioned in a place where many saw nothing, yet the humble saw a true work of art
From a young girl to a young woman, you watched her grow
Stole her innocence
Made her go against things that she used to believe in
Infested her mind with the idea of romance and true love
Planted sweet kisses all over her tender body
And caressed every crevice of her being
You made her believe in something that wasn’t real
In something that she hoped for
Something that she longed for
And yet at the end of the road
Didn’t hesitate to push that blade behind her back
Breaking her hopes and dreams
Watched the petals slowly fall
And the flower begin to slowly wilt and die
Reminding her that every rose has its share of thorns
And leaving her trying to catch her breath on her own
—
Your honor,
I want to sue this man present before you today.
I want to ask him for 2,102,400 minutes for the four years that I’ve known him
I want to ask him to give me back the one million kisses that I placed all over his being in return for the ones he left on me.
I want to ask him to give me back every single embrace shared, because clearly, they never meant much to him.
I want to ask him to put back certain words that escaped my mouth that expressed serenity, faith, hope, and love towards him.
I want him to take back these memories that he doesn’t remember, yet the ones that I will never forget.
but above all, I want him to take out the blade on my back that I can’t reach so that I can finally breathe again.
Lawyer:
“What’s your plea?”
Plaintiff:
“… Guilty.”
It’s been a while since I wrote this. I need to get back on my poetry grind.
white water river rafting;
“Please be careful babe.”
“Babe don’t worry xD”
“I’m serious. Please don’t goof off and do something stupid. Follow the rules.”
“Obviously lol”
“No i mean, I know I would do something stupid just for fun… but please dont do that”
“Babe, i’ll be fine lol stop worrying!”
“Ivy, I lost a friend from drowning. I can’t afford to lose you.”
To the girl who’s currently “slowly moving on”;
Darling, trust me when I say that everything will be alright. Seeing them together may make u feel sick (and at times a little jealous and angry for what he did), but always remember that what goes around, comes around. Karma is going to bite him in the butt one day. Cry if you have to, but don’t let it turn into a habit or else it’ll be hard trying NOT to cry. You have to distract your mind and focus on something else. Sure you’ll still think of him every now and then, but things will get easier over time.
If you have a job, buy yourself some things that you may like (clothes? makeup? any sports, musical, or arts that you may like? or any books? XD). I know money can’t buy you happiness, but it can buy you “temporary” happiness by pamperoing yourself and indulging yourself. You can also absorb yourself in a hobby. I remember I started to go to the gym after my breakup (which was a win-win situation because not only was it a stress reliever, but I was getting sexyyy for the summer haha xD).
Now you’re probably wondering why I, a random stranger, sent this message in the first place…
It’s because I was in your shoes two years ago after I broke up with my ex who I was with for 2 years. It took some time, but I was finally able to move on and let me tell you girl, I’m happier than ever atm :)
It’s been two years since I last saw him, but from what I’ve heard, he’s going through a lot of struggles. I on the other hand got myself a job, got recognized at school for my grades, and I now have someone new in my life who loves me and appreciates me like the way I deserve :)
When I read your post, it reminded me of the ones that I posted when I was going thru the heartbreak…
so at times like these, it’s best to hear from someone who has experienced what you’re going through at the moment…
Because I can honestly say that everything will be okay. Maybe not sooner, but definitely later.
You should deff take yourself out and enjoy the day with friends. If you ever get a chance, go out on your own to a park and simply sit and relax somewhere and meditate. Sometimes a little solitude heals the soul ~
Keep your head up girl. :)
